For The Life of Me

Category: What’s on my my mind.

  • Day one..page one..chapter one.

    So I promised some of you that I’d do this. I’m also promising you that these posts are gonna be jumbled and no where in any kind of order. When I look back on my life..I don’t remember a time when someone want manipulative and evil. There was always someone and wanted me for thie…

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  • To my teddy bear…

    Last night was the best night’s sleep I got in years, I am so sorry I snored. (You do too by the way., lol). When I texted you last night…and asked to come over, I never in a million years expected you text me back with your address. I really didn’t expect myself to jump…

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  • Deep breaths.

    I have wanted to do this for a while..and have recently had people ask me to write about my life…in book form. I can’t do that..the memories are too jumbled in my head to put things in chronological order…a lifetime of abuse and PTSD does that I’m told … Anyway..I present to you..the Making of…

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  • Life savers…

    You know, I don’t think I’ve discussed it much, but I have battled addiction and mental illness all my life. I didn’t realize that I was battling mental illness til I nearly lost the battle when I was 26. I had my first “breakdown” at that point in my life. I was doing much like…

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  • Shout out bishes!

    To the two lovely ladies in the community room of the building where I am working today..thanks for getting the juices flowing for the first time in weeks!!! I’m downstairs using the laundry room when I overheard one woman say to another. “They want you to be able to kill the baby right up until…

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  • Back to basics.

    Some of you have been following me since the inception of this blog, and I’ve picked up others along the way. You guys are gonna notice that quite a few posts are gone. There is a reason for that…somewhere along the lines, this blog went from a blog about being self aware, to being one…

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  • Ya know?

    I have had so many people over the years ask me why I don’t believe in the “Christian” God. That is a multifaceted answer. For starters, it bothers me that the phrase used to describe a good Christian person is that they call themselves a “God fearing Christian.” Wait..what? You fear the thing that matters…

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  • Isn’t it Ironic?

    Ya see this picture here? I’ve been told by so many people that I look so happy and content. The truth is, I don’t know what possessed me to take this picture…yes I took it myself. I was at one of my lowest points I’ve been at in a long time, and just needed a…

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  • My Lucy

    There’s someone very important to me in my life that I don’t know why I’ve never mentioned before. My Lucy…(no that’s not her real name, but a friend of ours started calling us Lucy & Ethel, and it’s kinda stuck since). I met her about 6 months ago (she started working at my store, and…

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  • Finding the Dragon

    Sittiin here sippin some rum and coke and listening to a lil Chris Stapleton..(I’m not a country fan, as a rule, but I am hooked on him lately) Honestly y’all…I don’t think I’ve been this relaxed in a long fuckig time. I mean really, genuinely satisfied with the plans I have laid out for me,…

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