Rewind..

BOOM.

Self-destruct.

It’s what I do best.

So there’s this guy that came across me on Instagram.

Ever fall for someone without them saying a word? Yeah…it’s like that. One look at him, and I was gone…and I fought it so hard. Right up until he shared a vid of him and his little girl singing. I couldn’t…I let go.

I can’t do that. I can’t do the long distance thing…I can’t. I don’t trust enough. I question ever move, every sentence. I’m not built for it, and I tried to explain that to him. I tried so hard, and he just wouldn’t have any part of it. He wouldn’t listen.

So about 15 minutes ago, I pulled the trigger. I deleted him and blocked him, both on Insta and Google chat, where we had been talking. I won’t…I won’t drag someone into the mess I am when it comes to online relationships…I won’t. I won’t hurt someone again.

Because I know me. I will.

A bit of me just died. I’m seriously considering deleting everything but Facebook so it never ever ever happens again. I hate me…so fuckin bad. I don’t wanna be this way, but I can’t help it. I barely knew him, but did you ever look at someone, and see the two of you together, everywhere?

Yeah, it’s like that.

Damn me…this one’s gonna sting for awhile.